Sunday, November 23, 2008

BLA

Do you ever have those days when your supposed to be doing something that is rather important, but just find yourself not doing it? Because for whatever reason you just don't deem it that important at the moment and go on to do something else that just wastes your precious time and then you realize that the important thing you were supposed to be doing needs to get done like NOW but you still don't really care even though its REALLY IMPORTANT and normally you should be freaking out at the fact that you have one day to finish it but still can't seem to make yourself care enough to produce that kind of emotion and when you finally start to work on it you waste your time even more by getting on the computer which sucks you in and makes you waste even more time?

I sure do.

Wednesday, November 19, 2008

mood



at the moment, this is me.

Monday, November 17, 2008

Silly

Following in my sister's footsteps, here are ten silly things that i happen to like. And don't be so quick to judge me please. Everyone has a hobby or object or SOMETHING in their life that brings them joy even though others might not see the reason for their joy and go on to criticize and then stereotype them because of that one little aspect of their personality. Judgment is stupid, everyone does it so what comes around goes around. It'll happen to you sometime and you just have to keep going because not everyone shares your exact thought and opinions. We're all made different, so therefore we all think differently.

And that concludes Julie's rambling.

On with My Ten Silly Things!
(in no particular order)!

1. Manga/Anime: I know it's silly that's why it's on the list :P, but there are actually some with good story lines and dialect, funny too, and the art is beautiful. At least in the ones that i prefer.


2.Mott's applesauce + Saltines = yummy: So good for some reason.


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3. Avatar- The Last Airbender: This is a TV series on Nickelodeon. Yes it's for children and tweens and such but SERIOUSLY it is probably one of the best things i have watched in forever. It is Hilarious, it has a GREAT plot, GREAT characters, and even though it is immature and silly at some points it is a wonderful show that i LOVE. I own all three seasons. SO. GOOD.




4. Helium Balloons: more stupid then silly, but who doesn't like talking in that annoyingly funny voice?


5. Movie Trailers: I like to go on to yahoo and apple and just watch the new trailers, sometimes multiple times. It's a fun time waster.

My most recent favorite is the new Harry Potter movie trailer. It is going to be amazing.

6. Car Rides: that are semi long, maybe half an hour to a couple hours, with music playing and little to no talking on most occasions. I like daydreaming during the drive.


7. Dinnerware: I mainly collect mugs, cups, and bowls. I have a plate too i think. It's silly because i don't have room for any of it, almost none of it matches, but i keep buying things! I have quite a lot by now. I collect neat ones, mainly from anthropologie. I don't collect just anything, none of the "i went to Oklahoma and all i got was this stupid mug" kind of thing. But nice ones. Original ones. Artsy ones...yeah.(I want these.)

8.Painting my thumbnail: Just the thumb. its too much work to do all of them and they just end up all smudged anyways. And i can't find a picture of just a thumb with nail polish so just use your imagination.

9. Grapefruit Jellybeans: It's weird because I don't like grapefruit in any other form, just the jellybean.


10.People Watching: It's so interesting. But my favorite is when you watch people that you've known for a while, and suddenly you see them in a different way that gives you a new perspective of them. Sometimes my people watching turns into staring because I'm focusing really hard, so it seems creepy but I'm not a stalker i swear!

Tuesday, November 11, 2008

hello again....

I've never been good at putting my thought into words but i think that if i start to try it will be helpful later on in life.

So I've now been in college for about three months. It's...different. High school was never anything special for me. I had few friends and never really fit in to any specific group. Which was fine for me, it's what i preferred. College, while a totally different experience compared to high school, is somewhat of the same situation. I have my roommates and a friend from home and that's all i feel that i really need. I have no strong desire to go and interact with the other people in my hall or in my ward. Most of the time when i meet new people, i never really look at them as potential friends. With my roommates it was different seeing as how I'll be living with them for nearly a year. With others i don't see any logical reason to attempt to create a relationship that will most likely be inconsequential and fade away with the end of our freshman year. The chance that I'll see the people in my ward and hall again is probably very small, so i see no point.

I realize that this view on relationships might seem twisted or rude. But I've witnessed so many "relationships" in high school crash into huge heaps of sadness, anger and stupidity, that i don't feel like bothering with something that will end with some trivial misunderstanding that will be tucked away in some far recess of the mind only to be pulled out in order to examine the blow up and slander the once friend who had a part in destroying what you thought was a meaningful relationship.

Seeing as how my experiences with relationships of really any kind is very narrow and VERY twisted, i really shouldn't be trying to justify my thoughts. I'm pretty sure that once i experience true friendship, which is a totally alien concept to me, that my opinion on relationships will slowly turn. Hopefully. If it doesn't turn a whole 180 i think I'd be fine with that. i enjoy being by myself at times and having less friends means i get more time to myself. I know that sounds completely anti-social but I'm not i swear. I'll admit that in high school i probably was for a time, but not anymore. While i don't have "best" friends, i still have my roommates who are my friends and who i appreciate for putting up with me. All the people who professed to be my best friends in high school never truly cared. They used me in a way. Used my trust and loyalty. But that's in the past. And i never plan on letting that happen again.